May 1st, 2023 Diary: The beginning

Today was a Monday and I woke up very late, got out of bed probably around 3pm. I am still unemployed and not in education, so I live like a NEET. But I did do something. I went out for a walk and listened to the Bible, Matthew 21-25, and over half of Matthew 26.

My memory sucks and I was getting intrusive thoughts while listening to the scriptures, which doesn't help in remembering them. But I do remember that it was about the parable of the kings wedding and the parable of the talents. Jesus was also telling about future events where false christs will arise.

Then I got back home and began to write my first post on this blog.

My plans for this week are the following:
- Blog at least three posts
- Listen to the Bible more, I am not the biggest reader
- Pray in the morning and evening, and thank God for my meals
- Ride my bike and go out for walks to improve my aerobic fitness
- Calisthenics on Tuesday and Saturday to restore my upper body strength
- Start studying cybersecurity online by myself, I want to see if I can remember stuff enough to merit serious studying

That's all for now. Thanks for reading. God bless.

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